I couldn't feel more ALONE as I left the skytrain, going down the stairs, and walked out to the water. Aware of the things around me. I was surrounded by cement, spooked to some extent. A dog scratched some fleas, bit some ticks. A man, crutched in the corner rolled some form of plant that could be inhaled. I walked closer to the water hoping to feel safer. I found a quiet corner and continued to contemplate life. And was surprised by the loud shouts of a man who was most likely intoxicated. GREAT. But I was only moments away. So I waited. Being more and more apparent of my surroundings feeling unsafer by the moment. Then it came, looming out of the DARKNESS. I gathered my things and boarded in silence. But inside I was screaming. I sat, sat in silence, not an expression in the world. I tried to grasp the beauty of my surroundings, hoping to smother my constant analyzations. I didnt want to arrive just yet. This was becoming a placebo that I only believed in. But it was working. It really was working. But time was up, safeness level was increased as I boarded off and surrounded my self with LUXURY, hottnesses, and good friends. But of course, mind still screaming at the top of its lungs... longing for true TRUE happiness that is so hard to find.